don’t kill yourself. you don’t know what will happen tommorrow. how do you know it would be better if you were dead? what makes you think it would be easier to die? i know life can be constant terrible physical or emotional (or both) pain. but you will die soon enough. if you take your own life you will never know what could have been. you might say” you have no idea how much i have suffered. that’s true. i only know my own suffering. 17 years of physical pain, my wife left, i lost my job. i have no money and so on. but some how i still feel the peace of God. How does God still love us when He lets us go thru agony? the same way He loved His Son Jesus when He was beaten and crucified. this world is insane but God’s creation is beautiful. You don’t know whether things will get better or not. if you die then you have decided that death would be better than living in your misery. but how do you know? there are really people who care. God really does care but you have to do something. have you really cried out to Him with all your might? i once tried to end my life, but God did a miracle for me that night. He is no respecter of persons, call out to Him with your voice. don’t worry about what people think. He will hear you and He will help you. kick the devil out of your mind. you are of infinite value to God. there are also people who care.